Wednesday, December 13, 2006

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this is the sit to that movement against eve teasing... thanks to Amrit

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

We, the Women

I was watching this ad on TV the other day. It was Government of India sponsored ad; something about men staring at women also considered as sexual harassment. Also I saw a news article on Times Now about a blog where women get together to stop sexual harassment and did some dharna type things in Mumbai, mostly concentrating on staring. I missed the blog address. If anyone knows of it please let me know in the comments. Anyway after all that, I thought I shall tell my tale regarding this topic; an incident that happened when I was preparing for JEE.

For those who don’t know, IIT-JEE coaching is a big deal in AP and people stay in hostels and all and drop years together just to make into these portals. So the year I dropped to prepare for JEE, most of my classmates were hostellers. We were 70 odd people in our class and only 4 of us were girls, out of which most days I was the only one attending classes, especially after classes for clarifying doubts. This was the time when all hostellers were supposed to sit and study, and one of the employees there was keep a guard over them. This guy comes from the boys’ hostel.

One day when I was writing our weekly exam in my class, that guy happened to be the invigilator and he just kept staring at me. He made me feel uncomfortable and I packed the idea and continued my paper. All of a sudden I looked across my table and one of my competitors was busily writing and occurred to me that he doesn’t have this extra pressure on his mind and can of course write the paper better than me. I didn’t want to take this anymore so I got up and walked out, went my campus in-charge and told her there is this guy who’s making me uncomfortable and its troubling my paper. She immediately changed him and everything was peaceful.

So I thought, until he was constantly causing trouble whenever I stayed back for clarifying doubts. This time it angered me considering the fact that I had complained once. But I just gave him a hard stare and let it go for a couple of days. Soon enough he never took my warning and I got really angry. I walked up to my in-charge and blasted her by saying that when I complain against such a sensitive issue I expect her or anyone to take action. Even if it is just staring it is harassment. I was feeling harassed continuously all the while in my classroom. She said she’ll do something and calmed me down.

She told me I could sit in another room if I liked. Now this is crazy, why should I change where I was? Anyway I did that, sat in another room. But apparently, that guy didn’t get any warning. He would stand outside the room and keep staring. Now I understood this was getting out of hand and a mere change of place for me wouldn’t do, he needed something really hard. I went to my in-charge and told her she was useless, that she can’t even scold an employee under her. Luckily, that day, the chief of my city branches had come to our campus. I told her I am going to him and giving him a complete complaint.

She told me I was unnecessarily making a fool of myself and also a complaint on him would heavily affect his life and asked if I wanted to be the reason for making his life miserable. My reply was, firstly I am not making a fool of myself, I don’t care what people were thinking about me and it mattered to me that he didn’t trouble me anymore, and secondly, I had given him enough chances and if there is anyone who is making his life miserable, it is she who didn’t give him an appropriate warning. I went to that head of ours and told his calmly, without any sort of agitation, that there was this guy from the boys’ hostel who is causing me trouble and that I don’t want him in my premises. Sure enough, I never saw him again, but heard that he was made to stay back at the hostel and was asked never to come to our campus again.

I think each of us, victims, has to speak up against any kind of harassment, however mild it is, whether at workplace or at our colleges. Wherever it is, we must speak up, because no one else is going to help us. Considering my in-charge’s response, looks like even women are not going to help other women. We must try to change that too, by becoming more sensitive to other’s problems, more sensitive as women rather than just humans and also stop that trying-to-keep-out-of-trouble idea. Even the guys, they can help first by not harassing us and second, by speaking up against those who do.

To whoever reading this post, girls, stand up against what’s happening to you, no point keeping your mouth’s shut; guys, please respect women and support the cause. Respecting women is part of our tradition and culture.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

of circles and flames...

Ok let’s get started with the ideas behind the circle theory.

Most of us know that there are three schools of thought regarding man n god... Dvaita, Advaita and Vishishtaadvaita... hope I spelled right. I believe in the Advaita theory; that is god and man are one and the same... in fact all is one... and that one is god... he whole universe is one...

Now... if all of us are a part of god then why is it that we can’t understand each other completely? Why do we have differences in our way of thought and perception?

The “Arini” theory...

I always thought the answer was that we cud picture god as a huge burning fire and each of us is a spark or an “Arini”. When we flare up we are born and when the spark dies out so do we. And as you can see the lifespan of a spark is too small compare to the flame. The flame is eternal. No spark is alike; it’s unique in its own way. The amount of time it stays up and the height to which it goes is all special to it. This theory explains almost all my queries. But then I was in search of a different theory; a theory mainly to tell me about the difference in perception and not of life n lifespan n heights and all.

The Circle theory...

Geometry to the rescue. Let god be a circle; a huge circle. Now it serves the purpose of being eternal with no beginning or end. Each of us is a point on the circle. It serves the purpose of having infinitely many points on a circle or creations of god. We are all part of him. In fact all of us together form him. Now, let perceptions be the tangents. Every tangent is a tangent at a point. So every person has a perception. Tangents are lines and they meet each other. So people’s thoughts often are similar and they agree with each other. Some agree soon enough if the tangents meet close by, and some argue for a long time till they agree if the tangents meet far off, and some don’t agree at all if the tangents are almost parallel.

But, every tangent meets the circle only once. I mean to say that every person’s perception is unique. They may coincide a few times after some talking together. But, they will not entirely coincide always. They can’t be two people who are alike in every way. Sure, points close by have a lot in common; they may have many similarities, but, not exactly the same.

Well... I think its cool... I am looking for suggestions and points to be raised so tat I can get more doubts and reform the theory more. You know, every time I repeat the theory I make changes. So maybe one fine day I would have made enough changes to make it an acceptable theory and submit a paper to some theological society. :P

Now for the history and technology thingy... you know what... after the circle theory this one sounds so uncool... hmmm... I think this is enuf for a day... today I still have to write a story... as for this theory... may be sometime later... when I am in the mood for it...

just another day....

Well... well... one more day passed by... me got up late n went to bed early.. in the little time in between watched two movies and played with Photoshop and designed a coupla dresses... aaand ate a lotta chocolate... so when I was trying to crash last night I thought of all prospective things I cud do today.. Blog a bit... write a story... chk my mails... chat with available ppl... hmmm... btw... those movies I saw... “Morning Raga” which is a beautiful story of lives entangled in music... and “The Librarian” its one of those fantasy movies that I love no matter how old I am... but may be this time I was smarter... this is the third time I am watching and I found two major mistakes in the movie... lemme state them for those who’ve seen it... if you haven’t jus pack this blog.. Coz I cant explain a whole movie now....... so... one is the scene where they have to get a piece of the spear inside the ancient Mayan pyramid-ish thing I dunno what you call it... anyway... they jump on to a glass piece and then they “waltz” their way across the fire tipped arrows.... now how is that?? Did the Mayans know such perfect waltz then? And the second one is at the Buddhist monastery on kailash hill... As far as my knowledge goes kailash hill is not to be climbed protecting the religious beliefs of the localities... so anyway... the has to answer the question of the name of god... now... he says his answer is “ME” and answers it in devnagari lipi... now tell me... don’t you think the answer shud have been “AHAM”....??

Anyway...today is a new day... So here I am blogging... I have nothing to write nothing to say... oh... wait... I cud actually make my blog more creative and productive by putting down my thoughts instead of jus writing crap that goes on daily in my life... so lemme write them down.... but before I let you in on my ideas... lemme warn you... my blogsite address itself states “slishacrazy”... you can agree or disagree with my theories and all suggestions are most welcome.. But jus remember I aint doin my PhD thesis... they are jus thoughts...

One of them has been in my head for long... lemme call it the circle theory of god...

And the other jus popped up in my head while I was answering a question in my hss paper... the question was abt the inter relationship between history and science.

Lemme jus make that a new post...

Monday, December 04, 2006

My sudden journey alone to Bangalore... how exciting!!!

It was 6 o’clock in the evening when I decided to go to Bangalore the next day instead of staying back for a project this winter. I called up my mother and told her of my decision; then called up my father and my sister. My sister checked out, tracked down trains, timings and availability, and finally over the internet, booked a 2nd class ac ticket for the next day. She then, emailed me the ticket, I loaded it on my pen drive, went to the Sarayu Xerox centre and got a print out. Voila! Here is a ticket in my hands less than ten minutes after I decided I needed one.

So there I was going to Bangalore all alone. I packed up in the night and crashed. I woke up next morning only to see my roomie walk out of the room with her luggage. Went down to give her a send off and then had a bath and got ready. Then I sent off another of my friend, went to the library to return a book, had a juice and got my luggage down. With another friend along my side I went to the bus stop inside campus. I got on the bus and waved a bye to her. Here starts my journey alone.

As soon as I got down the bus at the main gate I took an auto to Chennai central and reached there in about 40 mins. The time was 12 noon and my train’s at 1.15. The train hasn’t even arrived yet. So I went to hot breads and got myself a pizza. Then I walked over to a book store browsed through many and finally bought a coupla magazines. Now the time was 12.25 and the train arrived. Then I found my coach and my seat. Sat down comfortably and wondered what to do. Then I remembered there were just three people who knew I was leaving Chennai and only one of them is still in IIT. So I started messaging all my friends “me on train now... jus saying bye... tata..”. The response from most was surprise. Some of them even called up to ask how the hell and when I decided.

Soon the train moved on. I got into little conversation with my co passenger, read the two magazines I bought, listened to Evanescence, Marilyn Manson and Dhoom 2 on my Ipod; and finally I it was 19.55 when I reached Bangalore. My sis and mom were right outside the coach waiting for me and we all went to her flat in an auto.

That’s it. that was it. What else were you expecting? A UFO to stop the train an abduct me? And superman to fly by and rescue me?

Well...well this was my journey to Bangalore. How exciting!!! :P

Friday, December 01, 2006

"Going home"...i think the title should rather be "Leaving IIT for a month"....

my exams are over... celebrations... and i still dint know when i was leaving or where... home was on my mind... no proj... i just wanted to go home... and sleep and wake up to a beautiful city on the sea shore... a city where i grew up... where each road and turning signifies a memory... where every lap on the wave soothes and calls me home...

as the day passed by... i came to know i am going to Bangalore.. my train ticket was booked in seconds and minutes later i was holding my ticket in my hand... whoa... Internet rocks...
so anyway... i got onto thinking what to pack and what to leave... last yr this time... i took everything home.... all my baggage... now... none of us was...so i guess i need not too... meaning... i am gonna come back anyway... that thought hit me... now... i live here... it gave me goosebumps...

and then i washed some clothes which i ain't taking home... and then packed all that i had to... and then cleaned up... all this while watching a beautiful movie... 50 first dates... sounds crazy.. but after i finished watching i realised that i actually watched it earlier... loooong time ago... anyway it was a great movie....
and then i looked at my status msg on gtalk... looked at my orkut acctn... looked at my blog... looked at my comp... my bed... pictures on the wall... my room... and it felt so nostalgic... i mean... i know i am leaving for just a month... but then... it was a MONTH.... and i felt like i was leaving home... for someplace i dint really know... Bangalore... go out have fun they say... go out where... with whom...

for someone like me who is so close to home... i just dint feel like leaving this place...i wanted to stay right here... i wanted to miss my train tomorrow... i realised i love this place.. i still remember when i first came here... my first days i hated it here... cribbed so much... abt ppl.. abt acas... abt work... abt area... abt everything... now i have grown to like it... and then love it.... just 3 sems down.... but it feels to me like... omg i got only 5 sems down the lane.... and then what am i gonna do... how will i ever leave this place... forever.... when i left school after 10th i was like why did it have to be this way... why couldn't it go on.... i wish the same now... i know its just 3 sems n i am off for just 1 month.... it still means a lot to me....

i really wanna go back home... Visakhapatnam... but i cant...not right now.... that's what I've been saying all along.... but now... this very min... i don't wanna leave.... my home